Lost

Crying is my new bestfriend 😢

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The heart wants what it wants

I miss you. I miss us. I miss your hugs and kisses. I miss everything about you. I will always love you. I never stop loving you. You are the best thing that ever happened to me. I never wanted to lose you. Few more months till we turn 3. Time flies… 

Never thought that I would ended up being together with you and up till today I still can’t believe that I actually loved you more than anyone else. How i wish we could always be happy and not quarrel over small things. I hate it when we start to fight but I love it after every fight, we never fail to hug tight and kiss each other. 

The more I type, the more I will start to reminisce the moments we had. Just know that I don’t want to stop making memories with you. I treasure you baby ❤ 

You’re handsome, amazing, funny, cute, loving (only when we are in good terms), fierce, sweet (same as loving), nice, and tasty 😋  hehe 

I’ve been missing you lately… I’m getting crazier the fact that we don’t often meet. Promise me you will be safe wherever you are. You’re in my thoughts and prayers. 

Assalamualaikum sayang, HJ💋💘😍🙈

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Tonight was the painful night ever. I’ve came to a point where I love someone but the people surrounding him is unhappy, disagree, dislike, whatever you name it. It’s very complicated. My heart couldn’t take any longer but no there’s always a good side of me. I wish I could be heartless and didn’t care about all of these. I just want to be happy without worrying about things that is not worth remembering. I don’t know how to put this in words but for those who hate me or have an issue with me, it’s not easy for me to face you guys. In fact I don’t have the natural look whenever I see all of you. I have to pretend, always. I’m sorry I never wanted to be that person. Or maybe to me if you’re great with me then I’ll be the same. Just fuck it this feeling sucks. Not the first time. I hate myself sometimes 😢

Been feeling lonely lately. Goodnight 💔

I don’t know.

As you can see from the title…. I really am don’t know. This feeling… Sucks😢 it feels like shit. Can’t even look at myself. Not that I don’t appreciate my skin or features but the thing that I feel like I’m not good enough. Why? Yup I have tons of why in my head now. Wish I could tell one by one. It’s all mixed up.. No one can ever understand what I’m going through. Yes I may seem happy outside but my inner hurts so bad. And I’m trying to pretend to be the happiest girl. Feeling lucky and blessed…. Nope. Maybe I do sometimes. Again, I don’t know.. Well how should I say this?  Just a little explanation. I feel like I’m hated by many. I’ve been questioning (more like telling myself), I wish I didn’t do anything that makes them(whoever that has issue with me) unhappy with my actions. I WISH I could rewind time, I WISH it didn’t started at all, I WISH everyone forgive and forget, I WISH people listen and understand both parties. And I WISH people don’t judge. What can I do?  It’s life right. I don’t even know what the hell I’m typing. I doubt all of you still and get what I’m trying to say. Well that’s it for tonight.. Good fucking night 😞 

Short comeback

I’ll keep simple. It’s been a month since I last wrote. I’m just going to post pictures though.

iLight with my man❤ – 26/03/2017

FFIRAMIRAHGETSMARRIED – 02/04/2017

Waffle ice cream date – 03/04/2017

Me & Elfi are planning for a staycation soon. We are looking at big room with spa bath/balcony. It’s been quite some time we last had a relaxing & chill stay.  Here are some of the hotel rooms that caught my eyes! 😍

I guess that’s it for now!!! Haven’t been fully better but will always keep trying. I will write/post more soon okie😘

Xoxo 

I’ll keep trying

Love is a beautiful thing but I’m just not good enough.

Period.

Taking a break because I feel like I’m not being myself lately. I will definitely come back once I get better. Let’s see how long will this take for me to purely recover. I’m sorry but I hope everyone will have a good day,  every day❤

Xoxo 

Short and sweet💎

Finally a day out with my boyfriend. Accompanied him to renew his motor insurance. Only took like 10 minutes? Which I’m glad because I hate waiting.

Proceed to Jcube to eat. We had Eighteenchefs. Thank you for the treat bb, as always💞

We then had our time together. Just you and me. Chilling ❤

A quick supper at MacDonald’s and we headed back home. Sucks to go separate ways but it’s time to end our day. I’ll see you soon baby. I love you with all my heart💏

Xoxo💋