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Tonight was the painful night ever. I’ve came to a point where I love someone but the people surrounding him is unhappy, disagree, dislike, whatever you name it. It’s very complicated. My heart couldn’t take any longer but no there’s always a good side of me. I wish I could be heartless and didn’t care about all of these. I just want to be happy without worrying about things that is not worth remembering. I don’t know how to put this in words but for those who hate me or have an issue with me, it’s not easy for me to face you guys. In fact I don’t have the natural look whenever I see all of you. I have to pretend, always. I’m sorry I never wanted to be that person. Or maybe to me if you’re great with me then I’ll be the same. Just fuck it this feeling sucks. Not the first time. I hate myself sometimes 😢

Been feeling lonely lately. Goodnight 💔

I don’t know.

As you can see from the title…. I really am don’t know. This feeling… Sucks😢 it feels like shit. Can’t even look at myself. Not that I don’t appreciate my skin or features but the thing that I feel like I’m not good enough. Why? Yup I have tons of why in my head now. Wish I could tell one by one. It’s all mixed up.. No one can ever understand what I’m going through. Yes I may seem happy outside but my inner hurts so bad. And I’m trying to pretend to be the happiest girl. Feeling lucky and blessed…. Nope. Maybe I do sometimes. Again, I don’t know.. Well how should I say this?  Just a little explanation. I feel like I’m hated by many. I’ve been questioning (more like telling myself), I wish I didn’t do anything that makes them(whoever that has issue with me) unhappy with my actions. I WISH I could rewind time, I WISH it didn’t started at all, I WISH everyone forgive and forget, I WISH people listen and understand both parties. And I WISH people don’t judge. What can I do?  It’s life right. I don’t even know what the hell I’m typing. I doubt all of you still and get what I’m trying to say. Well that’s it for tonight.. Good fucking night 😞 

Short comeback

I’ll keep simple. It’s been a month since I last wrote. I’m just going to post pictures though.

iLight with my man❤ – 26/03/2017

FFIRAMIRAHGETSMARRIED – 02/04/2017

Waffle ice cream date – 03/04/2017

Me & Elfi are planning for a staycation soon. We are looking at big room with spa bath/balcony. It’s been quite some time we last had a relaxing & chill stay.  Here are some of the hotel rooms that caught my eyes! 😍

I guess that’s it for now!!! Haven’t been fully better but will always keep trying. I will write/post more soon okie😘

Xoxo